Let go, let God

Of first day of Sem 2.2!

2011-11-07T15:44:00.004+08:00

New sem, new classmates, new time table, new modules, SAME OLD STRESS & LONG JOURNEY TO SCHOOL :(:(:(:(

first day of sch alrdy zao lecture half way thru! BAD! hahaha ;p

teehee!

b'cos she had so much time, she traveled from TP to queenstown to fetch me back to school again! (L) much!!! :D

Of jobs..

2011-11-07T15:31:00.005+08:00

I love doing event jobs because it gives me opportunity to meet a lot of different people, see a lot of new things & best of all, enjoy myself during work! ;)

Thanks to all my lobangs! Love you'all!

Working at Bar very shiokzx :D

Last day of work, while waiting to collect our pay!

Look at our faces, damn "shag"!!!!

Golf event @ Laguna country club

This is a reminder for all you people out there who work under the sun, Please apply sun block otherwise you'd end up like me with UGLY TAN LINES

Till now it hasnt faded much!!!! ;( I look damn ugly in sleeveless top!!!!

Of birthdays celebration..

2011-11-07T15:16:00.008+08:00

HAPPY 21ST JOHN (L)

HAPPY 18TH SARA (L)(L)

HAPPY 18TH BABYGIRL (L)(L)(L)

HAPPY 18TH JIE ^^

HAPPY 21ST WINNIE (L)(L)

It doesn't matter how often we get to meet up,

you know I'll always love all of you :):):)

All my party people!

2011-11-07T13:49:00.015+08:00

Hey all,

I just wanna say that October 2011 has been a HUGE BLAST for me!!!!

Never had SO MUCH FUN + Laughter + Alcohol + late nights + TCSS with my darlings! :D

In case I ever forget, this month has been 1gave some of the best moments in my life :)

(L)

crazy times @ chalet!

Twin gone wrong (size) AHAHA

like family to me

Though I look like !^@*#! in this pic but I will never forget the night I wore T SHIRT & Jeans to club just for your sake!!!

food + girls + gossips + laughter = SHIOKZ! (Y)

see my baobei always give such face 0,0

the dress I bought just cos Vinder say it looks good on me! I think it makes me look 5 years older LOL

this girl forever smiling, forever looking so happy!

my cutie catty of the night!

;)

my heart goes nana~

always BESIDE you kay ;p (inside joke)

Halloween @ USS

(L)

CAN YOU SPOT ME!!!? :D:D

CIAO!

What is your favourite toothpaste brand?

2011-09-20T11:41:00.004+08:00

Hey y'all!

Enjoying your holidays?? It's the FormulaOne week!! I'm gonna be busy this weekend with work! This is my first year working with Les Amis instead of Singapore GP for F1 so I guess it's going to be a whole new experience!!

So.. yesterday the family tried a new toothpaste brand and it was horrible! I didnt like it a single bit! It tasted like medicine! Ewh! :/ It doesnt even leave a refreshing aftermath taste in my mouth! I love it when its minty/refreshing :)

The pictures below are all taken from websites and I tried finding the closest to actual image.

There, SYSTEMA is the new brand my family is trying out and I really dislike it!!! I pray they'd hurry finsh the tube so we can change back to Colgate or others. Gosh :/

COLGATE is the regular brand the family uses and I'm cool with it. There's different flavours/functions though thus all giving somewhat different taste. But its cool, all of them taste fine and works pretty well on my teeth. Like the aftermath taste.

My favourite would be DARLIE. I love love how strong the minty taste/smell it brings and it is super refreshing!!!! Out of all 3, this is the one that can wake me up if I was in in lala land as I brush my teeth. The taste is v strong and I love the aftermath feeling!!!!! (Y)

I'm sure people who does not like mint isnt going to like this. It does however do the job for me! ;)

So, what's your favourite toothpaste brand???

Kukup Island 10-11 Sept 2011

2011-09-14T10:38:00.014+08:00

Kukup, here we come!!!

My favourite girl in the world & GodMa :)

trying out my apps...

see, she so cute!!!

My happy pill :)

this is good, should have gotten more!! + I'm not really into Agar-Agar.. I prefer Jelly but this is good! Sadly I only got one for my family & another for Shas because I went Raya visiting & thought this would be a good gift hee. Hope her family likes it!

this fish is known as "army tank"

blow wind blow, my hair like a chio here LOL it doesnt happen often ;p

oh wow, you caught me in my bare face!!!!! ahahaha

Can you see those heads?? & yes, the fireworks were really near us! Guess this is the closest I've been. love fireworks to the max!!!!

KONG MING LANTERN!!!!

heehee, happy girl with her lantern :D

The happy family! - PeiQi's bro cos he was @ dance competition!

My favourite girl with her lantern filled with funny wishes ;p

Daughter, Mother, Grandmother

oops, I posted this twice?? Haha, but it'd good la! If you happen to be at Kukup pls buy this!! V affordable also!!!! This is flavoured agar-agar. They sell bobo chacha too but I didnt buy.

Group photo!

The awesome 10 pax!

Hey ya'll!

So I had a really short getaway at Kukup Island, Malaysia.

Believe it or not, it is my FIRST time going into Msia. Yes yes, go ahead & "OMG?!" "WAH REALLY MEH??" "DONT BLUFF" "SURE NOT?!" "WHY SIA MSIA SO NEAR". Yup, I've had all these responses, repeatedly.

Well, my parents just think that Msia is really dangerous and so yea, I'm kind of forbidded to go there. Me being me, I made my own decision & decided that since I'm traveling with PeiQi & her family, everything should be well taken care of :')

So early in the morning I left to her place(CCK) & waited for the Van to send us in!

There's a total of 10 of us which includes PeiQi, her dad&mom, her lil sis, JianYing & her mom's friends! They were ALL SO FUNNY & CRAZY & HIP AUNTIES :) :) :)

I am awed by how hip PeiQi's granny is!!! She's the best! HAHA :)

Joy & laughter filled this trip, literally.

The best part of this trip, I'd say, other than the company, would be the Kong Ming Lantern.

That was also the first thing I asked when I arrive at PeiQi's house on 10th. I only saw it on TV/Net before & cant believe I'm able to play it! & I wrote wishes on it :) May it all come true! ^^

Plus sicne it's near Mid Autumn festival, many people were playing with fireworks and such & I tell you, it was REALLY loud & the fireworks were literally ON TOP OF OUR HEADS!!!! It was spectacular I swear!!! So pretty!!! & LOUD I almost went deaf ._. but still awesome!!! V pretty! As you all know, me loves fireworks!!!! ;p

Anyway, I spend a total of SG$100 in this trip. Pretty reasonable I'd say. SG$80 was for accommodation/food/transport. If you're on a budget and looking for a REALLY short getaway to chill and getaway from this busy SG lifestyle, its quite a good choice.

In the place we stay in, they provide Karaoke set(2 mics) and Mahjong. You might wanna bring your own poker/uno/monopoly deal cards.

Also, I'd like to say that I REALLY wanna visit Cameron Highlands. Gosh I want puke those Strawberries!!!!!

I am so envious of how close PeiQi is with her family & I'm very happy for her :) but cant help to feel sad that my family & I are so... ok nvm. Yup, so am looking forward to more trips with them! ;)

Hello, been long ;>

2011-09-06T00:18:00.017+08:00

Hey!!

I can't believe there's still people who'd visit this blog because I've not been blogging here since FOREVER. Even I myself dont visit my blog ;p SO to those who did, you're too sweet :D

You can always find me on tumblr anw! ;) Just follow me! Link is below ;)

Anyway just some picture updates...

I rmb this was taken on Vday!

In australia w Mandy :]

One of the most significant event in 2011 so far is the Australia Educational trip with my Year 1 classmates. We sure had fun! ;]

Drawing my boomerang which we get to keep ;]

It was REALLY COLD on the mountain!

I'll always support you maidy ;}

Don't be fooled by the smile.. HAHAHA

Leaving SG to Gold Coast!!! Night flight thats why we look kinda tired..

this is during a random party Damian hosted

Didnt get to stay long bcos there's so much projects to finish! Really like that place though! Will definitely go back there again! :}

I love this photo so much!!!!!! I wanna explore more places.. travel around :}

I had bangs for a while.. Beginning of the year.. Probably like Jan/Feb/March??

The girl who never fails to make me smile.. always sayin some crappy stuff that cracks me up. & beneath all that WEIRD exterior, I know deep down she's a v soft hearted girl like me.. open to many opportunities of hurt from stupid boys. & I'm so glad we made it through some rough time because I really love & treasure her a lot as a friend. I'll always have your back hon! You know that :)))

If you have seen her in real life, you'd know how much smaller she is compared to me! ;p but she's always looking after me & treating me like a small kid! HAHAHA its good.. I kinda like it ;p LOL. Her bf thinks I'm weird bcos I dont act my age OHWELL I KNOW but everyone dont think I am my age so it doesnt matter :P Anw, I know you've been through a lot.. & since the day I know you I've seen you grow up from those boy drama etc. Don't worry Maidy, you'll have a happily ever after w your brown prince charming hee :}

My best buddy did and send me this on a random day! & it so happen that I was feeling like crap that day.. you dont know how glad and delighted I felt when I saw this man!! We've been friends for like what?? 8-9 years now??? & its amazing because you've never left! I think you're like my longest friend... I know you'll never abandon me & so wouldnt I! Love you!

IF your picture not here or IF I never write words for you doesnt mean I dont cherish you okay. It just mean that you'll see it in the future.. haha well, this is REALLY just a Very RANDOM entry.. & I upload pics I happen to see on my desktop so yea :}

Have a good night people! xo

2011-06-05T19:31:00.000+08:00

http://praesenti.tumblr.com/

2011-03-25T02:20:00.001+08:00

Hi. Bye.

irritatingly sweet boy

2011-01-14T01:28:00.002+08:00

LOOK @ HIM!!! Dont wanna take picture properly!!! Close eye all!!

Argh!!!

Anyway, you are indeed the most irritating, annoying yet sweet bf heehee :p

You say things to piss me off all the time!!! but at the end of the day, how to get mad at you??

when you'd pop out some silly lame stupid jokes!!!!!

if not you'd start pinching my cheek all, treat me like some small kid yadah yadah(which I like) HAHAHA ;p

SO.. as we were talking on the phone earlier..

Me: "valentines day coming soon!"

R: "aiyo siao liao. can do what?"

Me:"wah why you like that say one! k lor"

R:"singapore can do what, if can I take leave WE FLY OVERSEAS k"

Me: hehehehehehee :D :D

SEE!!!! OMG WANNA KILL HIM!!! Hahahaha

Kay la, I know its gonna be damn hard to take leave one la but I hear liao also song lor ;p

HAHAHAHAHA.

cny is on the way

2011-01-14T01:09:00.004+08:00

HELLO ALL!!

CNY is coming!!! Gotten your new clothes/shoes/accessories etc yet??

I just got mine yesterday/today!

Havent gottena decent pair of shoes though :(

Been searching for a fair of flats since.. forever =.=

Anw, I bought all my clothes from Forever21 haha omg thinking back, I've been their fan for 7 years now!!!!! :D:D

So you might think I'd be what? all glitz and glamour? or in cheong sam all?

My foot. My parents kinda force me to wear jeans and just a simple top for CNY every year because some of my relative are just so judgemental and my parents think the way I dress will totally piss them off. zzz

People who know me know that I HATE wearing jeans and I doubt some of you even seen me in jeans before!!!! See, CNY leh, I gotta wear stuff I dont like!!!! zzz

So, naturally, you think I'd be damn excited to shop for cny clothes? No. Its a get it and over with thing.

Everything from Forever21 except for the black skirt! :D

I think I look really weird in this dress but R seem to really like it so yea, got it in the end :D

Thank you my lil boy for all the new clothes 'cept for the black skirt I got myself :P

Anyway, he also got this cat top today. Its similar to the rabbit one he had which I LOVE a lot!! Heehee. He was all out to getting the cat top man, been talking about it quite a bit! I wonder if he got it cause he really like it that much or because its a cat. LOL. Cos like, he gives me cat nicknames so hahaha aye shant go into that. ;p

Kay, lets hope I'd be able to get my new shoe soon yea?? :)

Also, did I mention.. the first movie I want to watch for 2011 will be "Love & other drugs".

Heard awesome reviews so yea :) Anne H is in it, shes like damn fair, I bet I'd feel so..tanned after watching the movie!

Oh & Butterfactory with Michelle, her 2 friends and Jency yesterday night!

It was A W E S O M E Z!! Love their company!!! Glad Jency enjoyed too :)

Pictures..with Jency! Haha so I'd blog more when I get it from her ^^

Would really love if all my girls could club together!!!!!!!!! It'd be SO MUCH MORE FUNZ!!!!

K CIAO ~

WHAT ARE THEY???

2011-01-14T00:28:00.004+08:00

Peiqi, D and I met up @ The Asian Kitchen for a XMAS cum catching up session!

Not everyone present leh, some PSK chose to not meet us though he was free luh!!! BAD!! ;p

Anw, we met @ VIVO because Qi was working so yea, figured its more convenient to meet there since by the time she end work all will be dinner time.

Anyways, like always, we had a hard time deciding what to eat!

In the end, we settled for Asian Kitchen!

No problem with that because the previous visit Qi and I had was a good one :)

So.. we had food yadah yadah, update each other on stuff yadah yadah..

Anyway this is really awesome! I will definitely order it again and again and again when I visit! :P

love you all!

not a full gathering though!

hope we can all be present at the next outing!

glad both of you liked the prezzie just a small thought :)

of christmas 2010 with tian

2011-01-13T23:32:00.003+08:00

Wow, its Christmas 2010 already huh!!!!

Each year the number of meet ups like getting lesser! BU HAO!

Kay, we shall make it a point to meet up more this year okay!!

Our movie dates, gosh.. those were the days man.

I really miss you yea :)

Thanks for the day. It was really good catching up with you, like old times.

Like I said in the note, our friendship is just like goold old wine, it gets better with time ;)

Losing weight each time I see you!! Very stress hor?? BUT YOU'RE GRADUATING ALREADY!!!! HAHAHAA LIKE A SHIOK!!!!

Kay, please take good care of your eyes & love you!

of christmas 2010

2011-01-13T22:51:00.005+08:00

M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S :)

Hey all,

how was your xmas?

Did you all have an awesome time looking at fireworks and stuff like that?

If so, GOOD FOR YOU.

This year, I did not go catch any fireworks.

BUT THATS TOTALLY FINE.

I spent it with R by my side.

We just wish each other merry xmas before turning in together. HAHA (:

Before that, I had XMAS party over at my relatives!

ITS ALL THE WAY AT TAMPINES omggggg.

Non school day still must go tampines =.=

Anw, my cousin got me a Crumpler bag, OMG like.. eh you imagine me carrying a crumpler bag?

BUT I APPRECIATE IT A LOT. because like, youknow the value.

Its not the sling bag kind, its the shoulder bag kind I think new in stores or something.

Anw, I'd still be using it, I'll find a chance to use it if it matches my outfit!

Thanks a lot for the present *)

So after dinner and gift exchange all, I went to meet R in TOWN because I WANNA TAKE PICTURES with him!!! IDC! For memory sake yo! ;D

Ya, orchard road was mad crowded DUH. We made our way back after taking a few pictures with xmas trees because it'd just get more crowded as the time is getting nearer to midnight!

Anyway, I am glad 2010's Christmas was safe, sparing me from heartaches *)

I know Christmas is totally not your kind of festival/season but its mine!!!!

So I'm glad though how reluctant you are(I KNOW LOR) to go all the way to Orchard to meet me just to take pictures with the Xmas trees all, you still came ;)

Everytime I look at the pictures we took that day, I smile to myself ;)

Its really differernt you know.

Though you spent my birthday with me this year(which I appreciate), we werent together and the worse part was we were both confused? So when I look back at the pictures, Im not exactly happy or get all smiley.

Tt was a hella crazy ride la early part of 2010..

So at least for now, Im glad that I could finally look at the pictures we take together and be convinced that both of us smile truly from our heart.

You said this few minutes before the clock strike 12,

"Sorry that I couldnt give you a special xmas celebration"

Then I remember patting your head calling you silly and all because the best thing you could give me is security and that night, I totally felt it.

It just make me feel so good because after all those struggles, we are finally Really better now.

Please know that my heart is true and that amongst all the rest of the important people and things in life, I love you!

&& not forgetting your family.

You know, I always feel so lucky that your mom actually likes me and that she dote on me just like how she does to you and your sisters.

I love her so much because she never fails to celebrate my birthday together with you! You know how much that means to me?? It meant A LOT.

& I love the xmas present your family got for me, its awesome! Im already using it! :)

My mom doesnt celebrate my birthday at all because she dont think its important so yea..

IN CASE YOU PEOPLE THINK YOUR LIFE IS SO SAD, THINK ABOUT ME, YOU WILL FEEL BETTER. For I bet no matter how unreasonable your parents are, they STILL celebrates your birthday for you, or at least buy a cake or something. FOR ME? NOTHING. & my mom say the same thing every year when my dad ask her what to do during my bday.

"Celebrate for what? Its just another day, shes not the only one having birthday"

AWESOME ISNT IT?!!!! See, now do you feel better about your parents already??

Kay, so I just wanna say..

Thank you KAIKAI :D

Wants for the New Year

2010-12-29T19:48:00.002+08:00

Because 2011 is arriving, I would like to welcome it with new stuff!! :D

No, its not an excuse to buy new things.. ok maybe it is ;p

I havent been spending $$ on good quality watches or shoes.

Most of my watches worn this year are the $10, $5 kind and I even have a $2.80 one!

BUT they all still look awesome and everyone were shock when I told them the prices so yea :)

Anyways, I've been searching for the perfect watch for myself for a while now and hmm.. I think I might have made up my mind :)

It started off with DKNY, FCUK & GUESS. Showed R all those and ohwells, he like NONE of them!!! He dont like the bling blings luh! Wth. So he pointed out a few for me.. like CK but aye, didnt like them. & he laughed sarcastically when I said that I will only get the one that BOTH OF US AGREE ON but guess what?? HE FRIGGIN LAUGHED AT MY COMMENT because he said its impossible for him to like anything BLING. Ok, he said he wasnt trying to be sarcastic but you should have seen his face!!! Grrrr... anyhows, we saw one that we kind of agreed on (:

Nice or what??!!!! Got blings leh!!! He still said it was nice!! Hahahaha. He really hate all the blings luh, those that I showed him he just gave the yucky look straight away! BUT Im sure if I were to show you girls, 9 out of 10 will like those watches!!!! Aye, nvm. So yea. Is this watch nice?? Not cheap you know. HELP ME DECIDE KAY?? Be honest please!!!!
This pair is so nice hor??? Shiny and all I LIKE!!!! :P

I know la, reminds you of Steve Madden right???? I dont wanna spend another bomb so I might just get this pair from Topshop (:

SHOULD I????

I'm not some rich girl so I really wanna spend on things that I will wear and use AND LOOK GOOD IN. So please help me decide okay? :):):)

Goodbye 2010 Part 2

2010-12-28T23:58:00.008+08:00

So, 2010 has been a year full of... surprises??? & change

Tiger Woods. Look at the number of girls he had sex with!!! Just google him. I think he had sex with 160 girls or something. Yes he IS that obsessed with having sex. I really wonder how his wife feels because if I was her, I'd just snap his little brother off. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jack Neo. Who would have thought??? I mean like seriously??

So what does this tells us? When a man is rich, pattern more than badminton ah!

Dyed my hair for like.. I dont know I lost count xxx times.

My hair was SUPER DAMAGED and it looked like crap most of the time. I swear its looking better now already even though it still looks crappy haha :(

Oh well, its all black now and growing!

My hair has never been this long after secondary school! I think I cut my long hair to bob in.. cant remember.. sec 4? After that I pretty much stayed short.

Also, I had bangs again!!! But aye, didnt like it duh ROFL. Going side parting now and not exactly loving it too. Still prefer with side bangs best :)

I also spend quite a lot on pampering myself this year.. brows..waxing..nails..hair..facial..blah blah.

Also, I had this job which is quite interesting in a way. Oh wells, just when Im really short of cash and have the time to spare!

Also, the shift from ITE to POLY is.. well.. make me miss my ITE classmates a lot. They were all really nice people to mix with and Poly has killed a lot of our time and we havent been meeting up. Still love them, no less ;)

Also, its the year that the people who are closest to my heart kinda..become not close anymore. One of my best guy friend even left me. Stuff happened, plenty of it and it just happened.. Of course I am sad but maybe thats the best for him?? Idk..

I dont really wanna say much here because its pretty private but YOU people know who you are and I STILL LOVE YOU ALL A LOT A LOT K. My may baby, my june baby, m oct baby, my nov baby, my september baby! crosses my heart.

This is also the year that my weight and fats go up and down like FREE FLOW.

Though I dont have the habit of measuring my weight but its pretty obvious from the clothes I wear and from what people tell me!

Yea, it goes up and down up and down.. Please ah, Im someone who love food a LOT and it is really not easy to control and stay slim. I dont know why I could stay slim last time, maybe I really should watch my diet already! Furthermore Im not exactly young anymore! means my metabolism rate gonna become weaker.. :(

Because I came to Poly this year, I've also made new friends, good ones, awesome ones.. lovely ones :) Though we'd be changing class soon, I hope we'd still keep in touch and all yea. Also, since DORA is given by you all, it will always stay special and exclusive for you all (hotstuff!) :) Lovelove.

Theres actually still a whole lot of stuff I wanna say but as you know, I am getting lazy already so yea thats about all? Will just add in whatever I want when I feel like! ;p

CIAO~

Goodbye 2010 Part 1 (Ryan)

2010-12-28T23:32:00.007+08:00

HEY ALL.

I decided to blog a few entries before 2010 end.

This is to remind myself of what happened when I read back years later.

As much as I can recall, 2010 was a hell of a ride!!!

2010 did not start off well for me.

A decision I made in december 2009 has caused me huge pain and it dragged on for months(I didnt expect it to be that way, I thought it would make things better for myself but it didnt.)

Anyway, as most of you already know, its regarding Ryan.

& for people who've known me for years would know that I'm more of the "na de qi fang de xia" kind of girl but it was different with Ryan. I THOUGHT I would be ready to move on because our r/s was seriusly going nowhere then(dec09) but wth, I was damn wrong!! I cried and cried so badly and waking up everyday is a nightmare.

It was good for Ryan because I guess he finally had a release? He didnt had to deal with me anymore, with us. Me on the other side, had to take it all had to suffer all the mental torments. I mean it seriously, it was MENTAL.

So I remember so clearly the night before school started I called Peiqi up in the middle of the night because I was FREAKING OUT. She was ready to go to bed but hearing me so upset so scared so anxious on the other line, she stayed on and listen to me. Basically, I cried more than I talk and I guess she was as helpless as I was. She gave me all the advises she could think of and I just keep crying! FREE FLOW =.=''

It was no joke that I had to be in the same class with him for that few months before graduating from ITE. We were..weird and awkward around each other. Seeing him hurts me so badly because the thought of how we turned out just kills me so deep inside.

However, with the company of friends, I managed to survive.

Ryan didnt wanna care about me and.. things kinda change during April.

He started to contact me, we started going out for dinner? stuff like that.. and then we both kinda decide to give it one more shot at love? It was quite crazy for me because I wasnt ready at all. The tears I shed and the crazy things I did to keep my mind away from him just kept haunting me NON STOP!! I was really afraid to accept him back into my life because I dont want to make another mistake! We quarrreled at the slightest matter and theres this once, I burst out into tears in Biz Park & I did not even touch the plate of food I ordered. Veron had to accompany me to the library to cry. It was damn pathetic la. So glad she was around and she even talk to Ryan for me because I was crying so badly to talk. Ya by now you already know Im a cry baby. Rofl. So the few months from April-October.. Ryan was trying to make me believe in him and have faith. It was really tough on my part because I just couldnt bring myself to let him in again. EVEN though I wanted him so badly, but it didnt override the fear I had!!

Step by step, we moved we progressed and Im glad we somehow made it.

Of course there is no guarantee to the future and everything is unpredictable. All I know is, you treat me very genuinely and sincerely. Thanks for trying to play every role.. the boyfriend the bestfriend the father the mother everything! With you, Im as true as I can be there is nothing to hide and I like it that way.

I love your family so much there is nothing I would trade all 4 of you for!! (:

PS: Patience goes a long way. Be patient with me and you know good stuff will happen :)
PSS: When you love someone, putting down your ego and saying sorry first doesnt mean you are right or I am right, it just means that you love me so much that you're willing to make the move first and it makes me happy.
PSSS: Express your feelings or thoughts for I cant read minds or every thoughts you have! Better to say it out then have misunderstandings later on!

2010-12-18T22:05:00.002+08:00

Term break in progress

2010-12-18T21:50:00.002+08:00

Hey all!

Been a while since I update yea.

Anw, my midsem tests is over!! YAY! ^^

I finally met up with ADEL on thursday night!!!!

She's still the same, very very lovable :D

I miss her so much I swear!! Cant bear to let her go when she had to leave.

Anw, Grace's friend Anna and Endy were in town on Thurs so we hang out!

I hope they did enjoy the night afterall! Stuff happened here and there. ANWZ, Grace was pretty crazy that night hahaha but it could have been much better!! Next time k, prolly on a wed/fri/sat night!! ;)

Well, this break is not exactly a break because there's so many projects and work to do!

Howeverrrrr, I still wanna meet up with people I care about!!!

I miss everyone really. I hope they miss me too. :P

I received my first XMAS present last week and it was from the most irritatingly awesome boy ^^

I wanted to give him his present on XMAS day itself but hack, I gave him today! HAHAHA cmon he damn eager to know what I got him already luh since last week!! I actually spent almost 2 hours choosing it so I really hope he likes it! Even if he doesnt he better fake that he like it! MUAHAHAHAA.

Anw, congrats to PEIPEI because she was the top student and she submitted her choices today so I hope she gets her first choice!

Kay, XMAS is nearing and yea.. I dont know what to expect because the supposedly group of closest friends I have aint really contacting me anymore.

Sigh, when will I have a good XMAS. Every year sure got things cock up one lor. zzz

Before I go, I just wanna leave all of you with this.. because I find it very true and useful.

"Do not make decisions when you're angry"

of learning to love

2010-11-26T14:32:00.003+08:00

Love comes in all form.

Family, friends, partner and most importantly, OURSELF.

We are all created differently and that makes each and every single one of us unique.

You can never find any 2 person with a complete same peronality.

Growing up, I've never really had issues with loving myself. I do not compare myself with girls with smaller frame or those with better complexions and such. Of course, at some point I would prefer to have smaller bones, sharper nose, smaller hips and whatnot but all of that doesnt equate to how my friends love me for.

People come and go, that is something that is not easy to accept. Especially for me because I am very emotional and sentimental but I've learnt to look at it from a better perspective now. When people go, it doesnt mean that they will be gone forever.. or maybe they're leaving just so better ones can come along.

I've had people who I hold very close to my heart, and even though we might not be as close as we were anymore, I still love each and every one of you so much.

I really hope that we will still celebrate our Birthdays together and celebrate CNY and XMAS together. It will be meaningless without you all in it, really.

I have a very loving dad who dotes on me more than anyone ever will. He's always trying to be there for me, telling me that my mother loves me as much as he does even though she may not show it out. He always give me what I want if I ask and never do blame me for getting bad grades. I'm still trying to learn to accept my mother for who she is and tell myself that no matter what nasty things she may say to me, shes my mother and she loves me. Its not easy you know?

After so much drama between Ryan & I, I dont know how we actually held on.. I've never had such strong feelings for anyone till I met him & December 2009 marks the most horrible period in my life Ever. My friends were there, they saw me cry, they heard me whine, they were there when I tried to bury myself in alcohols that doesnt seem to work a bit. Everything was so intense and all I wanted to was to forget I even met him before. When he told me he was ready to give it a shot again in April 2010, I was very hesistant and worried because how much heartaches can one take? I definitely took a whole lot already! My life is already so messed up, am I ready for another big challenge? I wasnt as brave as I was before and I've been very insecure since. However, he was there, he never did leave. He tried to show me his sincerity and after going on for a few months, my heart kind of open up a little bit. Still, part of me is very afraid of getting myself in a fuck up sitation again. Last night, we had a fight over the phone and everything we've been trying for almost went straight down the drain but.. I dont know how it happened but both of us just cooled down and decided it was stupid if we gave up. I often ask him "What if it doesnt work out?" I am this really insecure bitch but every time I see our photo in my wallpaper, it tells me not to give up.

2010-11-22T22:45:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday Lynn! (:

Maidy, get well soon. <3

I was watching "Guess who" earlier on and I find what the Father in the movie said quite meaningful aye :p

"Do you want her, do you love her? Then she's always right"

Ryan, see and remember this okay?! understand??? :P

I'm glad that at the end of the day all I remember is you with your arms opened, me running towards you, then the hug miraculously solve everything < :

This doesn't happen a lot to me, because I'm always so scare and afraid so am I finally fighting back the negative side of my emotions?

of harrypotter7 and yy

2010-11-19T23:04:00.001+08:00

Grace just invited me to watch this with her sis and her tomorrow! OMG!!

Though I'm not a HP fan, butttt I've heard good reviews from so many people about this so I'm quite excited yea!! :D :D

When Grace told us about it yesterday I was already excited for her luh, because like her sis got the premiere tickets with breakfast and all.

now she's inviting me along heee, cause got extra ticket ;P

Today, I went out with YY.

Last night I wasnt really feeling well and all so wanted to stay home today, but I felt better around 12pm today!.. was too late to go meet Shas then so yea, stayed home to watch Vampire Diaries. THEN, YY texted me around 4pm and said she was otw home from Jurong East and I was thinking why not meet her :P

So yea, we met and had lunch then went window shop around Vivo.

Got this massage thing for my mother but I guess she didnt like it. Aye):

& I got this super useless stuff BUT aye, the lights nice luh. Its this apple lamp thing HAHAHA :D

OH, I HAD VANILLA CLASSIC JUST NOW ^^

I wanna get Itouch 4gen!!
Wanna play OVEN BAKE the gingerbread man so cutie HAHAHA =p

of love and happenings otw home

2010-11-18T13:38:00.001+08:00

In love, you can't really choose. Sometimes you'd end up with someone so not your type yet the feeling still feels incredibly right.

So I'm otw home now, blogging on my bb! Its only 135pm /: anyway I was on 291 just now and this group of junyuan sec boys were having an "interesting chat"
Boy A: "do you get wet everyday"
Boy B: "oi you stop it ah"
Boy A: "not the wet you thinking about la. Like shower la do you shower everyday"
Boy B: "shut up la I don't get wet everyday ok"
Boy A: "ee you mean you don't bathe everyday? You don't get wet in the shower?"

Me: *shake heads*

I've used Maxi eyes for a while now but I'm going back to Freshkon. Or I might go back to maxi again later on.. What brand of contact lens do you like best?

Happy Birthday, loves (:

2010-11-15T00:02:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOSHUNA & NURHILYA (: (: (:

Love you both! Last year being a TEEN yea, enjoy it max kay. You'd totally feel my pain in no time :P:P:P:P

Nov 14, (:

2010-11-14T12:45:00.016+08:00

PS: I wanted to post more pictures but Blogger dont seem to let me to! you girls know who you are yea, who I hold close to my heart to!

Hey all! I know it has been really long since I blogged here! I left this blog open because I know one day I'd be back for I lovelovelove the blog url! :P

A whole lot of things happened and it makes me realise that everything is really unpredictable and no matter how much you may wish or pray for it to not happen, if its meant to be, it eventually will.

I still remember how afraid I was when I first went to ITE and that Kaesen had to be on the phone with me constantly for 2 days! Many people think I have a bitch face and that ITE protrays this "lian & beng" image to the public so yea.. it kinda worries me. Originally I was suppose to be in IET then the mgmt think its too big a class so I went over to IEU! That is when..I met so many awesome people in life thus far! :):):)

My friendship with Pei Qi started in the most awkward, funny and crazy way ever!! I shall not go into details but I love her so much. She was always there for me and even though she dont express her feelings freely like how I do and how some other people will, I know deep down she loves me. Of course, there are other awesome people! John who Never fails to make me wanna whack him and he just drives me so crazy with his stupid lame jokes! Though sometimes its kinda funny. Thing is, he has this cute tomato-ish face and it just makes me happy looking at it!! Hahaha his face is my source of entertainment and he chase away stalkers for me!! :D Also, I will never forget the times Aida was there listening to me, taking care of my emotions, giving me as much good advises she can give! & some of the other girls have this.. Idk, like when I see them I just smile! They're so adorable! & Im so happy for Hilya because she have this awesome bf now :):) I hope Saliza will find his Mr Right soon and for all the other girls as well! ^^ Of course last but not least Elise my little girl, as all of us know, her temper sigh.. haha BUT she has been such a sweet and caring gf for S..or at least to me she was!! But IDK sometimes things are not meant to be I guess? I hope one day she finds this guy who will truly love her for who she is!

Oh, & of course, after meeting so many guys in life, the one guy who takes my heart away, drive me crazy all the time be it happiness or anger, make me fall head over heels, etcetc... R.Goh fuck you :p:p

I can like write a book for my ITE days! Cant type it all here! I appreciate each and every one of you! & Pot, I miss you! I think we really need to do catching up and you need to update me on your life yo!

I love my ITE days!! For the people I met made it awesome! (:(:(:

2010-01-16T20:56:00.005+08:00

Hello,
just a little update for people who wanna know (:

Went to Ashley & Jackson's wedding on Monday @ Shangari La hotel. I kind of had a great night with all the compliments ;p Like never expected all those at all (: Thanks to Ellison for inviting me, had a great night :)

Tuesday was Nat Gan's Bday. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAT! 1 year older and wiser now okay (:

Some shits happened so I kind of need a platform to release steam, sadly, no one wants to go clubbing on a Wednesday night because next day morning class and all.. but Damian called and we went out. Met in town around 9pm+ and had dinner. Over to St James. Sadly, he couldnt go in ): We didnt plan to head to PH & he was alrdy out and all in his slippers. But anws, the music that day wasnt really good? & the crowd was just.. bad. Had a chat with Kevin & went home around 2am?

Thursday, Jackass in school with Elise, Superhero Movie after lesson @ Starbucks. We were freezingggg to death. haha it was SO cold, trust me!!!

Friday we had lesson from 10am-12pm? Then Elise and I hang out @ Bishan for a bit before Aida came over to meet me. Thanks Elise for staying with me till she come (: Caught "Did you hear about the Morgans" with Aida. Marks the 3rd movie for 2010 for me. Haha. The movie was okay. Some parts were really funny. Trained home to do project with Peiqi. We had our discussion, did our stuff and all. Had dinner, slack a little and headed to City Hall to meet up with Adel. Tian didnt join us in the end :(((( Suppose to head to Supperclub but theres some issue. So we went over to Clark Quay. Chris came. Adel had Burger Kings, we chat and bullshit a bit. Deciding between club or pub. In the end, we ended @ Rebel. Major shiokness! Paid like $25 for cover charge though, we went there like around 12am or so.. but I guess it was money well spent? Bcos we had our share of FUN!! :DD Wah, like super high. & after last night it made me realise a whole lot of things as well. Haha aiyo guys ;/ Cannot be trusted one. Grinding girls but text gf "I'll be fine, sleep early, I'll go home early" Grrrrrrr. Anws, cnnt update too much here dont want any stupid comments. Zicra was pretty empty last night. Rebel was packed like sardines. Anw, we left @ 4am bcos I have to wake up at 8am today & Adel has to be up for tuition as well. I really had a blast last night! Thanks to Adel and Chris for looking over me, getting elbowed, pushed and all by those guys ;p Love you all okay (;

& tonight wanted to head over to PH but no one is interested so aiya ): Nvm, next week then.

Sunday, tomorrow, will be slacking @ home and doing project I guess. 1 week has passed by again.

P.s: Thank you Saliza and Aida for your time spent making me feel better (: More dates like that kay? Hee.

2010-01-12T10:18:00.002+08:00

like super overwhelmed with all the compliments and praises last night. i think im going to be a happy girl for the rest of the week ;p & of course i'd have my ice cream to thank for waiting for my decision to choose a proper dress. but i actually thought i looked a bit weird last night, alas, doesnt matter as long as other people think its nice LOL. && of all the times to have a tummy ache, i had a terrible one while i was preparing to go out last night so i had to rush through my make up bcos i was already going to be late, luckily it was pretty smooth cept for the eyeliner part, it JUST has to screw me up, im gonna get the ''gel'' one next time, no more liquid liners for me.
& people, i survived one week of school, this is my second week, i hope things will get better for me, really thank my friends for staying and sticking with me pushing me and supporting me all the way. i've been in constant dilemma but i guess i really need to stick to the choice i've made bcos its for my best? anyway, mice project is ongoing and draft 1 to be submitted tomorrow, needa amend and submit lpd draft 2 by this thurs.. then pjms and all.. lunar chinese new year in one months time, valentine's day as well. this is going to be a sad valentine's day for me, having to face the people i dont like and not able to spend it with people i like/may like. sigh. 2010, can you get any worse?

so sad but true, for me theres only you.

2009-12-28T12:19:00.005+08:00

Hi babies!

X'Mas 2009 was greattt!! ((:
Well, last year's xmas was pretty much very screwed up for me so Im glad this year wasnt!
I didnt eat any log cakes but I had the best companies and its all that I'd ever wish for.
Well, Oct to Dec was full of heartaches and I cant believe Im actually surviving all these, or rather Im trying SO hard to.
I really love ALL my friends and I cant and never will be able to say enough THANK YOU to them.
Thanks for being there to listen, to advise, to tell me I deserve so much better, to give me hugs and kisses, to make me laugh and buy me roses!
Ohmygwad. Receiving roses from people you love and care is indeed very different.. esp when your best friends are the ones giving them to you!
It melted my hearttttttt awwww <3

Santa, Im very thankful.

I havent love anyone this much before and it really pains me to see how this r/s had turned out to be. Like you said, you need time. & I'd give you just that, even though Im dying inside. Many people ask me to leave, to give up, to forget. I would very much want to be able to do this too, but I just cant. I still feel that I havent tried hard enough.

I guess Im not going to countdown towards 2010 because I am so not expecting/welcoming it with a happy or excited mood. Matters of the heart, more and more issues to come. I feel so troubled and confused. The one thing Im scare of losing most are the close friends I have & I dont know if Im going to lose You. It did came as a surprise and this is definitely not the right time. My heart is so unsettled and I dont want to make any more wrong decisions to add on to those I've already made in life. Esp when You are involved, I so much dont wish to hurt You. Still, like You've said, at least You didnt make regrets. I hope You didnt.

Meaningful read,

2009-12-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.
You are falling in love with my insecurities,
and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me.
You are falling love with my immaturity,
my constant need to feel loved and appreciated,
my overactive tear ducts,
my internet obsession,
my tendency to be too clingy.
You fall in love with my troubled past,
and my hopes and dreams,
and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart.
If you fall in love with me,
you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you,
the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day.
You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say,
and the way I blush when people ask me about you.
But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me,
despite my thinking that it is impossible.

Me: "Do you think I can get over him?"
Q: "Yes but you will take a long time to recover"
Me: "Fuck sia, how you know?"
Q: "Because you love him a lot"
Me: "Haiz, Im screwed"

Finally an update!

2009-12-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

A BIG HELLO TO ALL :D

IM BACK TO my dearest sofatsofat.bs.com ;p

Year 2009 is coming to an end & there're so many stuff that has happened throughout the year!
Anw, I had food poisoning and it was so sad :(
I rested in bed for more than 24 hours straight!
& ate nothing but porridge and medicine~
;((((((((((((((
There're so much medication to take and its really gross :(
&... one big thing to update, Im Single now.
(even though I hated it to happen but sometimes in life you just have to make a decision)
Well, many stuff happened & most of it are on tumblr.
Even though its not what I really wanted but I really need to end all the sufferings.
It was simply too much for me to handle & I really dont want to celebrate Xmas with a foul mood or welcome 2010 with a huge rock in my heart.

ANW I went out with my fav aunt Lily to celebrate her Bday on 17Dec :D
We did nothing but shop and eat around town (:
That day I traveled around Singapore via train pls -_-
Queenstown-CCK-Sembawang-Tanjong Pagar-Somerset!
Goodness!!
Anw, I went to stock up on my facial mask sheets before meeting the couple(aunt&uncle) @ 313 somerset!
Aunt Lily was doing her usual shopping @ Uniqlo & she got herself a pair of fantastic denim @ a steal! Then I saw some awesome belts as well! In leopard and zebra prints! I want :DD Didnt get it though. Then we shopped around 313 a little and went to have late lunch @ Tian Jin Guan!
They serve awesome ZHA JIAN MIAN & Chinese Pizza!!! :DDD
ION after that and everywhere seems to be having big sales!
Sadly, my pocket's empty :(((
Suppose to have dinner at this Restaurant @ TAKA but sadly, it relocated! :(
Tsktsk, was Aunt Lily's FAV luh :(
Then she had a SUDDEN crave for Seoul Garden so.. we landed up there!
Omg, it has been !@$#!% since I went there man.
It was pretty packed luh! Many people were celebrating their birthdays.
(& this was the reason why I got food poisoning)
After dinner, we walked around a bit to take pictures of pretty and shiny xmas trees!
at 9pm, we decided to go far east plaza to shop a little more..
& we waited for 25mins for a cab OMG my feets were friggin tired okay!
Luckily I wasnt in heels that day!
&& my aunt got me a Leopard tank which both of us lay our eyes on when we first got into the store!! & a belt & hairband for XMAS ((((:
Yay Im a HAPPY GIRL. =))

Love the ribbon on the tree!

this top is friggin awesome! diggin it!

my FAV mask sheet! :D

bought xmas cards for my lovelies :D

*TWIST*

THE SEX

& yesterday I slept for more than 24hrs!
Omg. Seriously.. ;///
Finally feel better today..
& all the medicines are.. causing my throat to be friggin dry
but I cant drink too much otherwise I'd feel very bloated ;/
omg, I thought my health got better..
why did all these gastric shit come back! :((((

2009-12-16T21:32:00.001+08:00

I will forget everything we've shared in this 10 months.

2009-11-25T22:23:00.001+08:00

www.brightberry.blogspot.com GO NOW!

2009-11-21T20:56:00.002+08:00

Hi.

IEU went to the Zoo few days ago and it was.. soso?
I've ALWAYS wanted to visit the Zoo but never did & I've never thought I'd be going tgt with so many people.
ANW, IDK why but I wasnt as excited as I thought I'd be.
STILL, thanks to Ms Wong & Ms Nair for making the effort to bring us there! (L)

The outing with Aida & Ifah was great :)
We basically did nothing but laugh and joke and tease each other :D
Well, many things happened recently and the day out with them actually calmed my mind down a whole lot. Im glad we didnt put each other's aeroplane last minute (:
2012 was a long movie, 2&half hours I think? Or maybe a lil more.
We paid $6 for the movie since its a weekday and before 5/6pm.
I'd say it is definitely worth more than $6.
I expected myself to cry because so many people were telling me how touching it was but I think it was not SO touching.. it was fine. There're movies which make me tear more. BUT, the effects were Awesome! We went for the Digital one anw.
3 of us got the same necklace, simple one :)
& we had FROLICK YUMZ :D
Ira came to meet us after the movie & we went to FEP for a lil while.
Accompanied Aida to get her Cardigan & I couldnt resist the temptation of one really cute one so I got it anws ;D WELL, the price is reasonable so why not!!

Ytd was super packed.
School in the morning,
had a mock test and I failed! RAHS.
23.5 yea OMG haha I NEED TO STUDY.
Qi & I went for interview & got in.
Omg, now Im regretting a little. Or maybe more than a little ;//
I just have to convince myself that it'd all be good then ;O
Late for the shoots by like an hr ;//
ANW it was pretty sad that it rained and we couldnt catch the sun set :(
Well, I hope he managed to get good shots though!
I feel pretty restricted because of the dress I wore, maybe I should have turned up in more comfy clothings!
ANW, thanks so much for the company "ASSISTANT"! ;P
I know you're damn tired after everything!

Today, I went to do my nails because the previous one was being caught SO many times and warnings here there everywhere!
SORRY ELISE :(
So I did a very simple zebra prints french this time. Well its only the tip that is black&white so I hope I wont get caught! PLS NO. ;////
Ryan & I got present for his sister & its so cute but Im not really a fan though but still, it was very cute ;p
No, I am not contradicting myself!
Its cute, but Im not a fan, even though Im not a fan doesnt mean I cant say its cute right?
HAHAHA ok nvm.
Ehh, then we went to get my things in Town
YAY I got the clutch I wanted since I lay my eyes on it for the first time.
Its like love at first sight?!
& he likes it too so double YAYS :D
& ELISE, I saw the NIKE flip flops/slippers already!
Its the same one that Ryan was telling me about.. or maybe it isnt the same BUT there's 2 kind lah so either one! ;p
ANW, I LOVE the yellow one! & the Gold ones good too.. SADLY, this time round Ryan looks better in the RED/GREY one.. Then we cannot buy the same pair :(
Boo, nvm we have matching yellow shoes already ;x
BUT we didnt get it yet maybe another time.
Hm, then I had dinner at Newyork Newyork they were having like promotion SO SUPER CHEAP PLS. & the food was okay la, super filling eh. & the waiter/waitress were REALLY fast in serving and getting/clearing the food so left tips for em ;p
WELL I work as a waitress before okay, it feels fantastic to receive tips luh!
Like my efforts being appreciated ;)
SO, after training with Ryan to Bishan I drop off there..
Omg BISHAN. WHY BISHAN? I also dont know eh! ;//
So like I went to Popular a while.. or maybe more than a while well IDK why I just LOVE buying stationaries and I cant stop! ;/
Grr, then I wanted to borrow a book but sadly, I didnt bring my library card ;(!
SO I TRAINED HOME AFTER THAT, ALONE.
WIN right?
I zai eh.
Do you know how tempted I was to take a cab back but SAVE $$!!!
Arghh because I dont like to go back alone.. esp places like Bishan.. so far ;//
Okays, I'd stop here already gonna take a shower soon!

Tomorrow's Lynn Bday so I'd be going over to Ryan's place to celebrate..
I really wanna borrow the book that I saw just now so I hope my area's library has it!
OKIE DOKIE. Till here.

BYEz.

2009-11-16T19:31:00.002+08:00

Hi.

Im glad I took up the job as an assistant image consultant,
the 3 days spent with the Primary school kids make me see how "CUTE" p5 kids these days are.
It was an experience & it kind of gave me more "part time job opportunities".
I followed Elaine for 1 day & Carmen for 2 days.
Both nice ladies :)
& Spore being Spore, everyone is linked up to one another!
I've actually met Carmen's brother-in-law before when I did this event few months ago & Im going to do a shoot for him this Friday!
Excited much :)
I actually really hope to take up more events & jobs so my time will be fully occupied.

ryan & I, we're going through a very tough and rough period
sometimes our quarrels get so so intense I could see how much it hurt him & myself as well.
each time he say or do things to hurt me when he himself doesnt realise, it makes me feel even ''sadder'', & I feel so helpless, hopeless & devastated. I really dont know how much I can take, how much deeper my heart can break. I feel so awfully broken & no one is there. I can never understand, why would 2 people who are so in love hurt each other like that? It just shows how shallow "love" is. Love alone is not enough. I wont deny that things have changed now, I dont know if ryan realises it but things did change. Especially now that he has so much more commitment than before.. I really dont know how is he going to handle them well. All the tears I've shed, I knew it was out of loving him. That was different from my previous r/s where I cry because of the hardships I had to go through just so I dont hurt the other person more. I am so tired to think.. I just want to be kept busy & as occupied as possible so my mind dont have to start thinking and heart start aching.

Tomorrow I'd be meeting up with Aida&Ifah!
Like finally aye, been sooooo long since we did.
2012 Popeyes & bum around!

finally an update

2009-11-10T12:13:00.000+08:00

Wow, I cant believe the last time I blogged was on 17 Oct.

Anw, just some update..
DJCLUB has chosen its new committee members on last friday! :D
I hope everyone's happy with their post and will work hand in hand to bring DJCLUB to a higher level :)
They are also planning for the BBQ bonding event, I cant wait to see what the juniors have in store :D
After the election, I rushed over to Vivo to meet up with Priyaa & Tian.
We prepared the mini surprise for Winnie in like what? Less than 30mins? Lol.
It was super "WET" (because tian & I got all sweaty) & Fun! :D
It was great to see the smiles on Winnie's face & even though she spend most of her time talking to me about my weight gain and my un seenable waist now, I still love her TSK!!!
We took plenty of photos, of course to make up for the lost times we've had.
I really do miss all the joy & laughters & now its down to 4 of us girlies.
I hope we'd have a gathering again real soon! :)

School's.. rahhh PJMS-P can sometimes make my head go really big.
Still, after solving it and getting it right in the end make me feel like Woah, Im so great ;P
MICE presentation was over and done with YAY. 1 project down.
Next will be LPD & I hope we'd have fun working on this project.
2 CAs are coming on the way, 18 & 25Nov.
Starting from 28Nov, every Sat will be packed with Chingay stuff.. its starting to bother me even before it begin, Idk if I've made the right choice to be part of it, well I'd just have to KEEP reminding myself that Im doing it for the certificate and it sure is worth it.
Im actually really looking forward to Beach Fiesta in 2010! :D

Also, its been really long since I've met up with Liqi.
The last time was to celebrate Ellison's bday luh! Omg..
His msn nick doesnt look any good so I really hope hes getting on fine in all aspects.

Anw, I gotta rush already so more updates later!
Oh & I caught JENNIFER'S BODY online.
The thing that stayed on my mind wasnt the horror part but the friendship the 2 girls shared.

2009-10-17T10:34:00.002+08:00

Update:

6-8Oct: Blaze Camp (IT WAS A BLAST!)

8Oct: Doulet's Bday Celebration & Stayover (Didnt go for Doulets Bday, sorry about it :( & slept the day away after Blaze)

10Oct: Picnic @ Botanics with Winnie & Tian (Did not happen due to RAIN)

11Oct: Top1 with Adeline&Ellison (Did not happen)

WINX was awesome @ Blaze :) We won 3 top prizes Yay :D Best breakfast, Best performance & Best Servant Leader(AIN YAY). I cant remember whats the last prize about. Anws, I had so much fun & felt young all over again ;D Wouldnt wanna miss Blaze II so plsssss select me pretty plss :D

2009-10-04T23:08:00.003+08:00

5 Oct: School > Ikea > Home
6-8Oct: Camp
8Oct: Doulet's Bday Celebration & Stayover
9Oct: Home
10Oct: Picnic @ Botanics with Winnie & Tian
11Oct: Top1 with Adeline&Ellison

12Oct: Sianesss startssssss...

FIONA, we cant meet eh ;(((((((((
Next holiday already I guess :((((
Or some random weekend k ^^
(bu yao zai pian wo le ah ;x)

2009-10-04T15:51:00.007+08:00

IM GOING OUT WITH THNG MAMA ON SUNDAY.

(really B4 holiday end sia)

Woohoo, Ellison, confirm attendance kay! TEXT WO :D

& Im at Adel's place now.

She's doing her Physics TYS.

She refuses to complete her MCQs & kept wanting to go cycling, watch BRUNO(dvd).

-shake heads-

Ohh & I brought my friggin laptop but it cant be usedddd because the wireless is screwed up :((

What the..

So heavy k. =(

Her dad fried fries for us and it was pretty good, cept some tasted Too salty.

Still, good effort :D

&& Im going over to Garskin to fix my phone & then fix my laptop's wireless/bluetooth thing.

Selling

2009-10-03T14:56:00.001+08:00

Both going at $10 Each

Disc all working

$18 for 2

2009-10-02T10:57:00.003+08:00

Results are out,
best I've scored yet,
please let things get even better for me (L)

This holiday is pretty fruitful,
I've met up with all the great friends,
except for Adel Gan & Winnie,
I need to plan a lunch/dinner with Winnie and Im settled.
Crashing Adel's place this Sunday Yayness :D
Beef Stew ftw!!!!
ps. thng mama, where did you go?? so busy with work and stuff? forgotten about me:(

B'cos I was so upset one night, my WetT & I planned for a date to the Underwater World followed by The Ugly Truth but I was so emotional I slept only at 6 in the morning and wasnt feeling well at all so plan was cancelled :( So everythings been postponed and we'e hiting UWW today, I canceled everything just for you okay WetT, you better be a good person later TSK.

& people have been asking me why Im always going out with random guys??
No I am not, Ryan is Kaikai is KK. They're all the same. Just that I call him different names at different times according to how I feel but really not so much of Ryan because it feels super weird and far from me. & the few guys I'd meet up are always pretty standard so whats with the random guy thing? Chill darlings. We're still good with each other (:

ps. I saw this awesome pair of heel yesterday but sill pondering to buy or not to because I've SO many new pair of heels that I've not even wore out before. Its crazy. I just have this liking for shoes and I cant stop buying them :(

2009-09-28T17:58:00.002+08:00

SICK.

Flu & Fever,

officially the worse combine illness ever

I cant breathe well,

sneezes NON stop,

nose felt SO pain when theres air con,

whole body feels so heavyyyyyy,

& sweating NON stop; cold sweat.

I made a promise to myself

that in this holiday

I MUST make it a point to meet up with my long lost goody friends.

(cos next semester is going to be even "xiong-er")

2009-09-22T22:29:00.003+08:00

Today, Ryan & I had some issues. Bad stuff.
We need to stay tight, but I just cant control my emotions, you need to know its not always about talking logic, sometimes its the emotions. It gets the better of me. I really cant help it. Not that I dont want to.

Though I felt sad and all I went ahead with meeting Tian & seeing her it did make me feel a lot better, I guess she didnt see I was weird. Ha. Anw we had a good time watching "9" and catching up. Watching "9" wasnt planned & turned out pretty okay. Small heroes eh :D

Eh, many people have been telling me HOW MUCH weight I've put on. Gosh, gross. I feel so sad, I really want to lose them all but its so hard :(

Elise Koh, you win already. Seriously. Good lor you, GOOD.

Status: NEED TO REWIND. Goodness.

2009-09-21T16:19:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YglNjzBOnnI&feature=related

Amazing!

2009-09-21T10:26:00.008+08:00

I do, Do you? Haha :D

As the rest of the people were celebrating Hari Raya, we were down @ Botanics to help out with this Wedding event :D

John was supposed to be involved as well but he put aeroplane on Ms Wong. Aww bad Bao.

Anw, our job was to be a Chaperone (ok shit I totally dont know how to spell tt), mainly to assist the bride/groom & the solemnisers.
We were all paired up & Elise & I were together @ Orchid Park.
We actually felt it'd be better with all the orchid flowers around, more sweet, more natual :X
Throughout the whole thing, we worked quite well.
Our Solemniser, Mdm Lim LOVE to take pictures. Crazier than I am. :P
She's a nice lady so not much problems arise.
We had a total of 8 couples to be in charge of,
some were really nervous, some were totally sweet,
some came to renew their vows, yada yadah.
It was definitely an experience, seeing them say "I DO".

That was our last couple, Mr&Mrs Lee.
They brought that cage & flowers themselves, swee or what.

The cage & the flowers, seriously sweet. They had to like bring it all the way here & the bride didnt even complain.

Solemniser doing her thang ;X

HAHAHA The fan on top

She straight away requested to take a picture with us when she saw us!! :D

My partner for the day

The ring pillow.

The deco on the table.

On the chair.

Aunt Ivy. She is REALLY friendly and nice :)

CUTEst dog. I swear.

The area where all 168 couples will say I DO together :D

Packed lunch. Elise straight away thought of John, esp looking @ the Fishball.

I really dig events management,

though at times it could be so hectic, so crazy,

big responsibilities and all

but still, hell lotsa fun!!!!!!!!!!

The upcoming ones are F1 & the PAYM event & I really hope I will not screw things up.

Anw, before meeting the rest at Botanics,

Damian & I headed to church.

I waited almost close to 18mins for the train to come,

announcement said there was an accident.

Luckily I wasnt late for church because Damian planned the timing 30mins ahead.

So we met Preston.

Service ended @ 12pm, we were introduced to 2 girls later on,

Ivy & her sister.

Friendly people.

Thereafter, we cabbed down and we were still earlier than the rest even though meeting time was 1230pm but we reached 10mins later.

I really think its unfair for anyone to judge me not knowing anything about my family & I.

No one will know whatever I've gone through other than myself.

Same goes to anyone else isnt it?

Been going back to school with Ryan as he need to recover/pay back the days he owe for SW.

He still have 2 more lessons & I will definitely drag him to complete it no matter what.

Sometimes love is really all about giving and not asking anything back in return.

Its crazy how love is,

so simple yet complicated.

p.s Cant decide if I want nano anymore, the boyfriend think its waste of $$.

I've always thought that way too, but this generation is cheaper with more functions than the previous so its stll a steal no? Hmm.

2009-09-18T18:22:00.003+08:00

Ipod Nano 5 Gen

With video recording,
fm radio,
genius mixes,
& voice over.
There's like 15 video effects, so cool.
Also, the previous generation has a matte finish,
this is glossy. hm.
It has been on the E stores for a week and according to the person I spoke to,
she said it'd be out in stores after a month?
I like the Red & Blue one, especially the red of course.
Should I get it now online or wait till a month later?
But you know me, I cant waitttttttttttttt..

16gb $288
HOW? BUY? NOW??

2009-09-17T21:10:00.004+08:00

You cant see but IDK lah.

I finally completed my F1 e training last night!

Gosh, & I did 2 not 1 as Ryan's com screwed up so I saved his night.

Lol, almost dead. Was so tiredddddd.

Luckily it was quite a breeze 'cept I have to wait for the person to completely finish before clicking next, thus taking it a whole lot of timeeeeee.

I am doing okay, except my body,

crying for help everyday,

I know its super mad @ me with the amoutn of oil I pile on it everyday.

[c=40]Winnie Kay[/c] says:
oh hahaha okok kamxia
oi i heard u become F.A.T
Anita; says:
lol yupyup

[c=40]Winnie Kay[/c] says:
ya lor! hahaha
walau eat too much lah
everytime see your blog sure got yummy food
make me drool
Anita; says:
lol ya lor eat too much
must lose weight sia
must lose a lot lor
damn it
hell la

[c=40]Winnie Kay[/c] says:
no need lah
u have such a nice body shape for so many years
it's time to become fei mei

LOL my friend funny ah, dont know to laugh or to cry ah.

Anw, Kai & I went for mooncake tasting today,

he wanted very much the White lotus & Green Tea mooncake from Dong Hai

but in the end, he didnt.

So I got 2 Durian mooncake for myself & he got 2 for his family from Homes.

SUPER YUMMY LUH. :DDD

Thanks for accompanying me though you super hate durian.

Eh, Im going for church this sunday then the wedding event.

Sadly, everyones gonna be so pretty and handsome but we are to be in jeans & working tee.

Alas, nvm nvm. Its a happy day!

Eh, update on Ellisons bday later.

2009-09-13T13:48:00.002+08:00

Heylo, if you cant contact me in the past 1 week, thats because I was away from home and didnt have my 8222 number with me.

The 1 week, I did nothing but eat, mahjong, watch DVD, sleep and disturb Kaikai.
I think I had Sushi for like 6 times in a week -.-''
& my best friend still ask me out for sushi today LOL sorry eh, I really buay tong, I dont wanna start puking @ the sight of sushis. :D
Celebrated Ellisons bday last night. Swensons, Surprise, Shopping, TCC, Lunar, Up, & finally Top 1. I bet he had fun. & all the guys were almost dead already, only Jiaqi and I more enthu. Lol, we realy sing until the voice zao xia UNTIL...
ANW, we left at 530am for breakfast @ ABC. Gd & cheap WANTON MEE.
Homed. Expected a disater to strike but luckily it was smooth so IN THE END I could make it to meet Qiqi & Im already late.

Just wanted to update. For some of my friends think I died or smth already.
BYEz.

2009-09-05T21:43:00.006+08:00

Kay, random updates.

This is so nice eh, the maggiee brand in Spore can stand aside already. Can they bring this to Spore!!
I know I've mentioned how much I hate teddy bears but this was given because we helped with the donation thingy. They're such nice people really. They gave Denise, Tai Mei & I each one! Gosh. Cute :P

Heee, cute.

They obviously attracted lots of kids and adults young at heart :D

20 Aug, Ryan & I had Indian food. He loved it! so much.

this was actually the last dish.

nan! loved it.

mango lassi. I dont like eh. Taste like spoiled sour milk

this was really nice as well.

John

This is the card Elise drew. Super cute right!!

In 2008

She pretend only

Anw, yesterday I decided to give the trip a miss so we'd probably go another time.

Thanks for everything these days :)

Even though every minute I spend at home seemed like days..

I guess you made up for it in your own ways, or rather in our own ways.

Maybe we should work harder so I can leave the house, for real.

Its getting harder and harder EACH second to live at home.

Though I've tried to come home like really late and leave home really early,

you still have your ways to piss me off so badly!! why?!

I would love it if you could just ignore me for good. For real.

Hate the sight of you, your voice and everything else about home is just shit.

I went for work today, didnt know we were doing for the Plane VS Car event.

Wow.

It was tiring but fun I guess?

The people at the event were nice guests smiley and all makes the job easier.

Saw a few familiar faces.

My hands are in pain, even as im typing this!

I have no plans tomorrow, Ryan is working and I have to be home anw,

the parents are nagging non stop about me being out almost all day all week.

WTF I HAVE TO STAY AT HOME TMR. Serious shit, I will get all emo.

This is fucking killing me lah k.

2009-09-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

Today

Ryan-treat-day.

All expenses on him today :)

The feeling really different eh, felt more loved (kinda) :)

So.. out of a sudden, we decided to go for a hair cut & I highlighted my hair Yumz :D

For the first time in so long, he never really complain about waiting time.

Had alot of food today :))

I bought nothing, he bought this Pedro shoe he really like & he got this cute thing for me from Gift a Name which I wanted some time ago.

I got my laptop today. Asus. & my dad gave me all $50 notes so I cant resist taking a picture of it. Lol.

We had Din Tai Feng for dinner. YAY :))

SOOO.. after today we have to save hard!

I'll try so hard.

I had a great time today! really..

1 Sept

Met up with Ellison.

Had Ben&Jerrys YAY ;D

Random Day @ Kovan HK Cafe

Not really good

supposed to be my fav but it was so-so that day.

15 August

my poor pair of shoes :((

new pair to replace

& a few others :))

2009-08-31T22:28:00.003+08:00

LG VIEWTY SMART. Swee

But no, I dont have a thing for Touch screens. I HAVE to remember that. Tsk.

I am trying to save up. October 9, I cant wait! :D

PS. Job lobangs, TELL ME!!

Wet Tissue #1

2009-08-28T23:35:00.002+08:00

Geez.

My wet tissue just promised me a few dates.

I am supposed to come out with a ticklist.(cause checklist counds boring BLEAHz)

So here goes,

Kbox/Top1/PartyWorld/FamilyK
Sushi
Sentosa
Steamboat
Ion
Roller Skating

We have 2 weeks to clear the above.

Missed KoFlow's today :( Sad.

E'zzati said it was fun shit. DAMN.

So, she/we suggested DJ Battle GIRLS VS BOYS next week ;x

& she added that JOHN will defnitely comment on this. LOL.

John, people know you so well. Too easily exposed uh.

thoughts #1

2009-08-27T09:59:00.003+08:00

It suddenly struck me that ''I love you, so I'm letting you go" is kind of ridiculous.

If you really love someone, wouldnt you go all out for him/her?

If you're so much in love, why would letting go be an option?

Okay, maybe lest you're so tired of trying, of mending the r/s, and really so torn inside and worn out, then maybe ''letting go'' is the only option left.

Still, no one would let someone so dear go right?

No matter how shattered you are, you'd still hang on that last bit of strength right?

Im talking things in general, not only for couples but friendships and anything that has got to do with feelings for each other.

& once in a while, its good to give each other some time off right? (but if you do, please let the other party know otherwise it'd just break their heart further)

Well, everyone needs a break.

So it might not seem so bad as it is. If you're not even willing to try, things might turn worst.

Nothing is predictable in this world.

If you think back, has it even struck you that you'd fall in love with someone you did right now?

Has it ever occured to you that the perfect r/s you thought you've had is gone? Or that you've ended up wherever you are right now?

Anyway, life is really short. You never know when it will end. You never know whats going to happen the next minute or seconds. You never know who'd cross path with you and leave their footprints behind. So embrace all that you have :)

Sometimes, life isnt only about yourself.

(anyway, this is just a very random "thought post". Nothing is wrong with R & I. So yea. dont worry friends.)

2009-08-18T22:28:00.001+08:00

nothing meaningful or beautiful to share

2009-08-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

Damn sian ah.

'Cept that I did my nails today, its nude colour now & I love it totally (L).

I think I've found the right manicure place and will always go back to visit.

No need to 'test water' anymore :)

ANW, project. Just thinking of it make my head REALLY BIG.

Seem like there's a lot of things to be done.

Holidays are approaching & Im not happy at all.

There is this REALLY bad blister on my leg and I cant participate in SW tomorrow.

Uber sian-ness. I want to freakin exercise & this is like my only chance?

'Cos I am just too busy/lazy to exercise on my own.

Sigh, I look so gross in all my clothes now.

Sad girl period

& IDK whats happening to the friendships.

Everything just suck ah.

& YOU, it all boils down to yourself la.

Everything is You YOU YOU. Nth else matters right as long as you feel fine.

2009-08-13T19:23:00.003+08:00

Bra Hp Strap.

AHAHAHA. Cute ah.

The friendship with wet tissue is getting bad :(

I dont know what happened to us.

This whole week we barely even talk.

2009-08-10T15:49:00.002+08:00

*picture credit to original owner*

AH MEI CAFE.

Rings a bell?
Amk Hub, Hougang Point, Orchard Paragon & probably more places which I've not been to.
The crowd at AMK Hub is always good and when Im there, its usually full house.
I always don't mind waiting for it though :)
Im not saying its the best prata I've eaten but its neat & how often do you get to eat prata in air-conditioned places? :)
You can refill the curry as much as you want, for free.
Their Set A is pretty good too.. consist of 2 Eggs, Bread Toast and Coffee/Tea.
However, I think I might prefer Yakun for the breadtoast? Hmm.
I usually order 2 Plain Prata with a Teh.
It cost $1.80 for 2 plain prata & $1.40 for a Teh.

To each its own, this is based on my personal review.

movie review on Orphan

2009-08-10T15:19:00.002+08:00

"ORPHAN"

Initially, I thought it would be another movie with an abrupt ending.
I saw the trailer and was really excited about this film.
So I caught it yesterday.
It was amazing, throughout.
I think I got so involved and get really emotional.
Everything is pretty much intense, especially towards the ending of the show.
The actress, Isabelle Fuhrman, as Esther in the movie did a really good job!
Her expressions were so true.
Vera Farmiga, as Kate also did really well.
I think it is so good I didnt mind the $10 I paid for the show at all.
I don't think I should reveal much about the movie & you can always youtube the trailer.

Other than "Hangover" this is a MUST watch movie.

To each its own, this is based on my personal review.

2009-08-10T14:35:00.002+08:00

Some tattoos to share.

Hmm uni & dolp

cool or dumb, you decide. quite fun..though?

I saved the Best for the last.

2009-08-08T20:26:00.002+08:00

2 Movies to introduce to you lovely people!! :)

"Hangover"

Hilarious & entertains you till the end of the movie. I love how it ended.

Dont wish to burst the bubble. So just catch it to find out! Worth the time and every penny $$ :D

"G.I.Joe"

Woohoo, the joes! Hahaha do you spot a dancer?

It's Channing Tatum!

Action packed. I love the effects when anything is being shot at. So beautiful ;x

End your weekend with a blast,

catch "HANGOVER".

2009-08-06T21:46:00.001+08:00

I went to do my nails today @ Color Zone, Bishan Junction 8. Totally disappointed with their express manicure. I've been to like more than 10 places to do my nails and I roughly know what service should/will be provided. They're like overcharging too much? They dont even do alternate nail colours. Okay they, with an extra charge of $5. I've done alternate colours on my nails for like so many times, even been to cheaper ones. Their express manicure is $13 btw. It's just.. well, I've received much better service for rate lower than theirs so I dont think its worth it to do my nails there again. Such a disappointed. Well at least the colour was fine.. Anw I did nail art on 2 fingers so I actually bomb $23 on my nails today and feel totally not pampered like how I usually does. :((((( Its the one on 2nd Level beside Watsons.

2009-08-05T21:31:00.002+08:00

We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing while others judge us by what we have already done.

2009-08-05T00:25:00.002+08:00

Was deciding between white or yellow for tomorrow.
Chose to wear this in the end.
& I only got it hours ago LOL
:)

2009-08-04T23:33:00.005+08:00

25July2009
Ikea with Kai in the morning
NDP with Damian in the night
Its like my frsit time after primary sch I went to watch NDP?
I had fun eh!
Esp the Total defense part.
Thanks D for the invite :P

2009-08-04T23:06:00.003+08:00

Kaikai has been Really understanding these days.
It surprised me but I think I like it this way :)
Anw, my attendance for Design lesson is bad.
Im trying to be present for EVERY lesson already & also trying my BEST to do everything she tasked.
SW today, ran & captain ball-ed. Had fun with the people :)) Yumz.
Tmr, the class will be hanging out at ___.
Cant wait for the Big Breakfast Yay :)
I have 5 new tops 2 pair of earrings 1 havanians
I am so happy Im spending $$ on myself.
Cant believe I used to spend like $99 on a shirt, few hundred on shoes/watch for someone else.
Cause like I am not working part time actively?
Sothe $ is my own pocket $ that I've saved up?
Ya so I do think I deserve to pamper myself?
Since I've not been buying clothes for really long alr?
& I just ran through my drawer.. totally surprised @ how many piece of necklace/earrings/bracelets I own. Its crazy ;/
No wonder my friends are always telling me to stop buying accessories but not much of other things. Hm.
Well, Im a girl & one can NEVER can get enough of clothings SHOES BAGS and Accessories!
YUMZ :D

2009-08-04T22:38:00.008+08:00

2 AUGUST 2009
We were @ Tamp1
We had KFC that day
The KFC @ Tamp is really big eh & packed!! like sardines.
Had a good time unwinding :)

Kaikai kept disturbing this skirt!!!

Do you dare to wear it? & walk around Orchard Rd? on a NON cos play day?

he like spongy eh. not me. Im faithful to Patrick. Really :) & thats my new headband YAY :D
its a yellow ribbon. you cant see it. but ya its really cute & KK liked it ^^

I took this pic because the straw resembles my shirt ;D
anyone tried the drink yet? didnt dare to try. afraid it'd be too sweet.. tell me tell me!!

this is super yummy la pls. we bought the strawberry one! KK love it to hell hahaha we will definitely go back for MORE!!! :DD
the one next to it is green tea btw.

Hee KK's fav.

the toy matches his shirt eh ;D I got him that top because its soooo cheap.

aiyoh, why DOMO become like that. like wearing a bra on his eyes. *SHAKE HEAD VIOLENTLY*

TIAN THIS IS FOR YOU! YOUR FAV CHARACTER & GIRL.
BOTH PERVERTIC :DDDD
KON & I =D

we were ''faking'' it. HAHAHA
I do Not shop at Uniqle. SERIOUSLY sia. so plain eh their stuff.

26 JULY 2009
That was a really terrible day for Kaikai.
We met up & I tried my best to distract him from the sad matters.
Anw we went to Central @ Clark Quay.
We had like MANY MANY sushi on that day!
:D

Cute uni eh! PURPLE eh!! ;D

muddy mudpie like finally!!

it was almost totally empty @ Coffee Club and we enjoyed the peace :)

there were performers

been really long since I self take :D
look @ those eye bags! goshhh

yumz!

I really love dark chocolate but this box of DC isnt good :(

this taste better. bought 2 box.. or was it 3? :X

yumz! :D

go out shopping also must see something that reminds me of Design Application -.-

cos play hair! can you spot what characters they are?? no prizes if you get it right though :X

ok. us.

2009-08-02T12:24:00.003+08:00

Had a really bad fight with the woman on thursday night and friday morning, didnt to stayover @ Kai's.
Rushed project till 4am and didnt manage to finish but submitted on Friday still.. Had high fever on friday night and under KK's care, managed to recover on Saturday morning after just popping 2 fever pills before turning in on Fri night. We did minor shopping on Sat. 'Cos KK feel that I shouldnt be in Town as I just recovered, we shopped @ AMK & Bishan. O.O Went into shops I've never stepped into. At the end of the day, got KK 2 tops and a havanians for myself(AT A FUCKING STEAL) + a cotton on top. Woo, love it a lot aye. Though its black & I've never had a thing for black tops. We slacked @ Nebo cafe and played games.. Uno spin, Uno stack, Checkmate?? & Upwards. Hee was fun. && we bought a pillow & KK spent like onyl $2 to catch this really cute thingy. LUCKY or what. After being sway for like damn long, finally smth to feel happy about. Cabbed back & had dinner @ 9pm! Explains all the fats ;/ Watch tv till late & didnt manage to sleep well because Im returning home today. K Im actually at home now.. but leaving in just a while.... Btw, my blogger is still screwed up, I cant seem to change the font or colour of my words. Eh, its really good to have someone to rely on when the whole world seem to be crashing down & Im glad that person is You :)

sad

2009-07-28T22:39:00.001+08:00

Im upset
Its a fucked up tuesday
You should Shut your mother fucking mouth and embrace just how our r/s is like now.
If you aint making the effort to communicate, why should I go thrice the extra mile?
19 years, you've proven me enough.
Enough tears shed to make me realize just how shitty this whole family is.

No way to run to

I cant cool down

2009-07-28T21:07:00.000+08:00

Hi all, I havent been updating because my blogger is screwed? IDK why too. I just cannot post At All.
Anyway, just a small update. My days has been bad. Unlucky. Extremely swayyyyyy. Kaikai & I hasnt been good lately, not our r/s but our personal life issues. Well, Im not gonna say anything here so dont bother asking? It's too long a story to share & I dont want to get upset or confused or sad so yup. If I wanna share I will :) Was expecting fun, experience and hopefully enjoyment before my F1 position came out, now that its out, I feel downright.. disturbed? Yes I shall be really careful with my comments here. Maybe Im just so so so SO SO SO Unlucky. Well, everything's pretty much ruined because I've made plans already ah nvm. I believe God let this happen for a reason so I shall try looking at the positive side? I just have to move on. Kaikai & I walked aimlessly in AMK today.. wanted to do my nails but ah, skipped. Saw this simple white Cheap watch but didnt get it in the end though I really wanted to. Had the most disgusting CharKuayTeow in my life at the food court. Saw this small cockroach there.. Eeee why eh. Should avoid eating there next time. I still like the watch alot, shall get it tomorrow I GUESS :) Kaikai fetched me home & we didnt talk throughout the whole journey because we were dead beat. We slept & I felt so comfortable on his shoulders. He give me warmth and security no one can. He don't even need to do anything. Occasional stroking of my hair make me feel..pampered. Oh & for the first time, I had fun with Qiqi in school.. I've never really enjoy the times we've had in school. Today, I laughed.(from my heart) I really had fun, dont know why too. Maybe because my bestie drop by my school ;x HAHA. Anw, it was nice seeing him after Quite Long already. The last time was watching DragMeToHell. Oh & I came home with a letter on my desk.. which cheer me up a bit and totally shocked to see it as well. K, nothing much.. Oh & thanks Damian inviting me to NDP, I had a relaxing and good time :) I love the Air crew, Navy and when the guys ''flew/jumped'' off the plane. Wow cool shit eh, must land properly one. Need skill one hor. Haha kids dont learn ah. Hm, tomorrow's a Wednesday. I have 2 essays to complete, Lendra's lesson. I have IEP project as well.. So tomorrow I shall come home early? Yup. Oh & anticipating for THURSDAY. Hope we can do something fun/relaxing? Maybe go Nebo cafe to play some games? Haha :) IDK, last week already cycled.. everyone's so tired.. so I guess no sports this week? Hm..

& sorry if my post.. is very boring and filled with words. I wanted to like bold certain words and change the font and all but Blogger doesnt allow me?!!! LOL IDK why either. Maybe I'd blog over at Tumblr if I have the energy to stay awake :) Ciao!

2009-07-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

Today I learn:

#1. Understanding goes a long way
#2. I really love you
#3. I'm willing to change for you

Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without and just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of, together all the while

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Picture, you're queen of everything
Far as the eye can see under your command
I will be your guardian when all is crumbling
I'll steady your hand

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time, time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

We're pulling apart
And coming together again and again
We're pulling apart
But we pull it together
Pull it together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

2009-07-19T19:15:00.000+08:00

Ok i've decided to delete the previous post.

I just had dinner, it was awesome (after sooo long, yong tau fu)
well, Im never really home for dinner so yea..
Update about life?
Im pretty much addicted to Yami Yogurt.
I've had that for 4 days I guess.
KK wasnt rejected by ACS! Thats a good news! He was really worried b'cos of the eye degree.
Now he's all excited for the interview etc :)
Hush hush baby, all will go well.
I had a hair cut. Yes I did say I want it longggg but it was just a trim I guess?
Haha, my hair's like grass. Needed a cut badly.
It didnt turn out bad so Im cool with it.
My latest video is Paris Hilton My new BFF hahaha Im only at season 1 though.
"That Fool" ended with a (big bang)! Haha the ending's beautiful. Too perfect I'd say.
Ok, people. be kind and introduce me videos to watch kay?
Sometimes I get so lonely at home;x
Wanted to go with KK to Jeffs but Im kinda grounded ;/

2009-07-18T22:55:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
(LOL.)

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Not bad eh. This quiz got quality siasxxzxxz.
Aiyo, I am damn bored. I am home. My own home. Feeling really depress now. :(

TRY IT www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2009-07-12T10:37:00.000+08:00

Stay tune

2009-07-10T02:11:00.000+08:00

Adel, do you still remember?

ME: ''what colour are you wearing today?
ME: ''dont tell me its pink''
HER: ''how you know?''
ME: ''eee.. i know''
HER: ''ok i changed out of it. i wear purple''
HER: ''and later i go buy purple shirt and fill my wardobe with purple shirts''
ME: ''lol you sure?''

then when she came back home..

HER: ''i bought 2 purple shirt and psycho my dad to buy one purple shirt as well''
HER: ''as long as you're happy''

This happened on 24 Sept 2007

2009-07-10T01:03:00.001+08:00

KK, 1 for you 1 for me ;DD

ok.. Im just kidding. I still love my e63 to death.

anw, gwc with qi & mul ytd.
suppose to change my Novo clutch but left with display piece & conditons terrible.
shopped a little & ate at this Ten.. smth smth shop. Right beside the arcade.
Was okayyyyy la. Very full though.
Qi & I got a pair of shorts each & homed.
Wah my hips damn huge.

Today I had a bad nightmare.
Suntec after school. Disappointed.
Marina sq later & disappointment again!
so in the end I gave the clutch a miss & exchanged for 2 pair of shoes :D YAY.
1 sandal, 1 heels ^^
anw, been REALLY long since I step into suntec/marina sq & I seriouly miss all the shops there BUT broke. sian 1/2

I am broke.
Intro me job leh

2009-07-07T22:23:00.001+08:00

30 mins late for school, SW cancelled anw so we slack in the canteen.
Had prata. Life skills lesson, teacher changed. & awesome name, like a girl's name though.
J8 with J, D, E. Got a file. Back to school.
Design lesson, very happy. Had fun Friends For Sale-ing, disturbing John's ringtone & doing project. Awesome multi tasker yea ;))
Da Bian VS Xiao Bian. My friend very nice eh. She hate her nickname, so I changed it for her. Then she bought me in FFS & named me Xiao Bian 'cos I named her Da Bian but seriously, Da Bian sounds a lot cuter and better right right? ;/ Geez.
Was on the bus going back to KK's place, half way through, realised my thumbdrive isnt with me, called Ms Jacq to get it for me and cab back to school to get it. Ah luckily she hasnt left! & luckily I checked! Goodness, otherwise I have to redo everything & what Elise edited during DSG also all gone to waste.
KK's place for dinner. Oh & smth funny haha. During DSG, KK came over & say this
Him:"This sat you free?"
Me:"Yes Why"
Him:"Im dating you"
Me:"Omg really ah? You date me? Hahaha"
Why funny? 'Cos everytime we go out, we just do. There is no.. erm proper.. how do I put it. Like he dont say stuff like "Can I date you out tmr" or "Would you like to go out to ___ with me tmr".
Its just like "So tmr meet where?" or "Tmr meeting?" Omg. Boring much. So not romantic yea. Booooo HAHAHA. So I told him one fine day that he ought to date me out someday! AND HE DID. BUTTTTTTT..
Me:"You wanna date me go where?"
Him:"We go Celebrate YX's bday"
Me:"Oh.. hahaha lol"
Chey. Hahaha not that I dont wanna go. Of course Im fine!! & Glad that YH esp invited me to his bro's party but, like that also can be considered as a DATE meh??? Eh.. okay.
So after dinner @ KK's place, we bused to get my Novo clutch :D Lucky us, it was already closing.. cahsier locked and all but yea they accepted KK's request to let us get it. Sadly, last piece left other than display and conditions not perfect so gotta change it @ other outlet tomorrow. BOOO!!
Eh & I had this sms conversation with Wet Tissue.. really wanna bash her!
ME:"Meet tomorrow"
SHE:"Hm Ok"
ME:"Ok :D"
SHE:"But you must say you will not disturb me for 1 month...Lol"
ME:"Might as well ask me cut botak"
SHE:"Not bad, ok, you choose one. dont disturb me for 1 month or cut botak?"
ME:"Might as well ask me kiss you everyday. Ok I choose this"
SHE:"What sia, faster, must say dont disturb me for one month"
ME:"Friends pei friends without asking anything evil in return"
SHE:"... ok, no ___ shirt for you~ haha.."
Sigh, why do I get threatened so often. Why do you love me but refused to show me out openly?? LOL. Ok la, I know you shy alr. Paiseh alr right. With your bloody hands on your cheeks and that puppy eyes. Argh!!

ANW, I need to bathe and do project soon. Tata!

2009-07-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

To Wet Tissue:
I think you know who you are :)
Anw it just suddenly struck me that during my messed up days,
you were there.
Omg you were constantly there to pick up my calls pick me up when I am feeling so messy and when everything fucks me up you say nice stuff.
& I will not forget how long we chat at TCC when I brought you there for the first time & we had Rose Juliet.
Gosh, my memory so good or what?
I just wanna say thanks. but I will not stop disturbing YOU(aww)

2009-07-06T21:37:00.003+08:00

Day 1

I think this is one of the best picture I can find of her. She does look really good here.

Everyone's so lovely today. & Bridget is damn Brave ah.(the hair!)
Was nice catching up with friends :)
Hub with KK & Joel after school. We were all given a can of Red Bull. Not the Gold colour one. Its not as eww. & after drinking it, my teeth hurts :(
Nebo gave KK 2 shirts & 2 shorts. Its like a set, 1 for guy another for girl. & I feel fucking fat because the shirt's like so tinyyyyy omg I need to lose a lot of weight for my own sake.
Paid my bill, bid Joel gdbye, homed.
Omg, I really want the Novo Clutch I saw on Sat on much but I need to settle my bills first.
So I shall be more patient.. (seriously cant!)
& omg fate much? I saw Fiona today! In my worse state LOL. & Im glad her __ is getting better :))) Aw you gonna become prettier aye :D
Oh & my hair, I just did it because I wanna do it as I've always wanted to but never get to doing it. Anw its nothing big ;)
Oh & there's SW tomorrow so classmates, please attend! :D
My my my, there's this new food store in the canteen. Prata yay!
& I feel so sad because some of my friends say Im very "DAO" in school? Omg no? I just really didnt see you so I did not say hi :( Or probably I was really engaged in my conversation or whatever Im doing. Dang. I am really not unfriendly ;{

2009-07-05T22:17:00.001+08:00

2 regrets this holiday
(because everything was planned but..)

1) Did not meet B to bake cookies
2) Did not meet Fiona

BOO.

Though I very much dont wanna return to school, I miss looking at some lovely people there! :D

2009-07-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

Caught Transformers(2nd time) with Kai today. This time round I didn't miss any parts but Woah, I think I miss like 10mins of the show the first time I watched. Pity for Tian, she missed twice. Grr. Anyways, I felt that the previous Transformers was better, not that The Fallen isnt good. Its really action-packed & some parts are.. hahaha maybe they just wanted to make Megan Fox perfect? 'Cos I really cant figure out why after running for so long her lips are still so perfectly glossly? & I like the part where the 80bound girl turn into some other ''stuff''. Bumblebee still as cute as ever ;D Aiyah I dont wanna be a further spoiler for those who hasnt caught it yet. Anw I am really awed by how HOT this film is. Seriously. The seats, after a week, are still almost fully taken! I wanted to post some pics of Transformers but I dont know why blogger isnt allowing me :(
Oh & after the movie, we did shopping :)) Hop by OrchardCentral & wowwowow, many many new shops. There's this Japanese shop, "Mika" something.. my first time seeing it on/offline, price quite steep though. Like a tee for $129? Hmm.. There's this new store, like fighting with Subway eh. Haha well you will know what I mean when you see it. One of the best store is "Catus" Ah I kinda forget the s[elling already but they sell really good stuff. :) Oh & not forgetting a dessert shop? Its wonderful. Very pretty cake! I would really have sat down for a bite if my stomach werent FULL. Gahhgahh I really wish I could show you pics here but after 5 attempts, I give up. Hm, we went to 2 Toy "R" Us because KK badly wanna see his Transformers toy & I gladly accompany him. Hello, from the bottom of my heart k not just for the sake of it :) Like how you'd stand beside me to give me opinions of accessories for hours LOL. Today was also his virgin trip to a flea market. Hahaha I only grab a top. Cute aye like it :) && we bought matching pens again! Haha I dont know why but I/we just have this habit of buying matching pens :D Eh & I saw this awesome clutch I have to get it! Nvm, I'll save up for it. After I settle my hp bills GRRRRRRRRRRRR. :((( Whats more KK love it as much as I do :) Ehh & I got myself 2 nail polishes today at a STEAL. Omg. & 1 of it is Electric Blue? Goodness I've been searching HIGH & LOW for it since forever!! & cant believe I got it at a steal. I refused to buy the O.P.I one 'cos its too ex!! I seriously wouldnt spend like over $5 for 1 nail polish? Hahaha. Oh & I saw this really nice outer wear which cost $40 but the materials like SO THIN it be so easily torn! I wanted to try but the Q is so effing long & KK doesnt seem too happy with girls pushing him so frequently so I decided to come by another day. :) Its all good, he wasnt feeling very well so hee I'll be nicer. I had a smiple great day today.

PS: After visiting OrchardCentral today, I cant wait for 313 Somerset & Ion!!
Omg, more shopping malls = lighter wallet

Eh, I wanna go BKK eh. Like seriously. I really cant stop thinking or yakking about it. Hahhaa I just need to go there. I need a job!

Wow, text filled entry.

2009-07-03T22:24:00.002+08:00

Hi all :)
Holidays coming to an end!
I guess this is the most relaxing and happy holiday ever. Minus all the shits I get during ___ & from the lady at home.
Although I've gained much weight but ah, screw that.
I had my favourite durians, I had pizzas, I had satays, I had Otahs, I had Kfc, I had chocolates, I had a few DVD sessions with Kai's family, I had delicious dinner @ KK's place, I went to Pasar Malam, I sleep in till like 12pm, I had shoulders and feet massages from KK, I played Badminton with Yuhiang Peipei Lynn & Kaikai(like omg, BADMINTON, like my favourite!!! omg seriously I love it to hell IDK why. Date me ah, anyone. Pls, for badminton sessions), I had my hair done. I celebrated Liqi's bday with the presence of KK Qiqi & Ellison, all the lovely people :) I met up with Wantian to catch Transformers, I drop by Adeline's workplace to catch up with her, I met Qiqi for shopping & chitchats, I met Damian for juicy gossips, I took the initative to text a few of my long lost good buddies. OH & the project discussion went rather well :) Though the trip to BKK didnt happen, I am still a happy girl. The only thing that upsets me are the fats on my body now. After what Wantian told me yesterday, I am even more determined now haha. Boo. Its all good :) We will go to the Yellow Ribbon Run together :) Send me the link ok Tian. Oh & because of the "Before After Before After" thing you introduced me to watch on Youtube ytd, I was well entertained! HAHAHA.

(now just some words for some really good friends)

Everytime I have time of my own, random thoughts will just fly round my brain.. I still really miss those times where 82 used to have fun together, not that we cant anymore, I guess I also need to put in more effort, more commitment in the friendship. As time goes by, there're lesser people left who'd eventually make the effort to meet up for celebrations. Birthdays, Christmas, Valentines Day etc.. Probably we just really need to set a date, where everyone can make it & no one is to back out the last minute otherwise we'd do a forefeit or just anything to secure that promise.
Also, I miss those time spent with Adeline,Adel & Nat. They're such happy & naughty people. They make me feel even happier and crazier around them. We used to hang out @ Adel's place WHICH IS AT BEDOK omg. We'd hang out till so late in the night & eventually cab home. & even though I hate it so much when Adeline plays MAPLE over there, we still have fun saying random stuff. & of course, now that we're all in different schools, plus commitments with our partners, its definitely more tough to find time but its okay, at least the other time when BOTH of you initiatied a meetup, it happend :)) I was really glad. Although it was a short one but its all good and comfy.
The other 2 boys, Mr Tan & Mr Huang. Confirm 100% chop they will Always be there. Like Always. I dont even have to fear anything. Its like, you know they'd be there to support whatever decisions you make, they will give you the best advise etc. & of course this once when I broke down(omg its so stupid), Ellison was there. So after a call, he got ready & met me under my block. I shouted(ok I talk but it was very loud my voice was literally challenging the sound of the cars and motorbikes, & of course the other day my voice was gone) all the way from my place to Orchard. We walk, mind you. Did not take any transport. He was there, listening to my craps, taking all my shits, did not ask me to stop at any point of time, tried to say comforting words, agreed with whatever I say so that I will feel better.. basically he was there.. Ya, it was really comforting to have a friend like that.
Also, I miss hanging out with Ace, Maybelle, Kaesen, Mae, Stephanie so much. They wont see this but yea.. I do.
Not that I do not love my current closer friends or whatsnot, its just that, you know, I miss all the rest.

Oh last but not least, BUIBUI, dont say I bias or what lah k, dont be jealous of my friends or what eh, HAHAHA I love you :D Thanks for everything.

2009-06-29T10:27:00.000+08:00

After 13 days of stayover, back home last night & nothing changes.
I thought I could manage 3 days @ home myself then its freedom for me again.
Now I kind of regret, but too late to change anything so I just have to stay put and ''tahan'' everything till 1 July.
I miss KK, his home & his family.

2009-06-20T15:26:00.010+08:00

Over the past 3 days

Ellison long gone already

Happy Bday Boy

Best Wishes Licky Tan, XOXO forever.

2009-06-15T12:45:00.000+08:00

T&C
Chio eh, I want.

2009-06-15T12:29:00.003+08:00

That Fool

This is what accompanied me during those sleepless nights

Funny & Cute.

*ps: click on my Ad k, refresh wait for it to load. :)

2009-06-14T18:41:00.003+08:00

To everyone who has asked and showed me concern, how can I ever thank you enough? ;)

Indeed it’s a rough time but I still have to hang on, though it’s tough.
KK and I had a tiff on Friday but alls good now.
We do bicker a lot, then again, love breaks them all ;D
Shopping with KK, aunty, YH & Peipei yesterday.
Didn’t expect to be out shopping so didn’t bring clothes for that & had to wear his. Of course I chose my favourite of the lot :)

Aunty got herself, Peipei & I each a bag and KK a pair of pants.
Missed church and stayed home the whole day, today.
“That Fool” accompanied me and I can’t wait for more episodes! Getting really exciting from Episode 14 :D
After today I’d be away from home for a week. I’m so glad because I’d get to sleep well again! No more nightmares or sleepless nights.
“Drag me to hell” tomorrow night after he knocks off from work.
We have Tue&Wed for ourselves, Thursday for B(if all goes well), Friday for ISS & Liqi’s birthday, Saturday for his cousin’s wedding, Sunday for ourselves, 22-24June for ISS.

He’d be away from 29June till 3July & I’d be having Blaze camp from 1-3July. I am expecting a hell lot of fun :DD
& on top of all these, project needs to be done! –big turn off-
Gahhhhh.
Another thing I can’t wait is to meet Ms Koh for “Transformers”
Dated her in advance already so heehee I hope no hip cups and we will have our date smoothly.
& Fiona, I didn’t forget about our date(you said during the holidays we should!) ^^
Ah okay, time to watch “AI”.

Oh oh & some lovely things for your eyes :D

Note to self:

I should exercise during the holidays to avoid gaining another 10kg

2009-06-12T03:57:00.003+08:00

It's almost 4am now and I cant sleep
Lucky enough though to have "That Fool" to accompany me.
Sadly the net only has it till Epi 13 for now and Im already at Episode 10.
Few hours later I'd be in school to rush all my designs
..............
I have like more than 10 to do eh. How to complete. Zzzzz